New Year New Beginnings

Happy New Year to all my friends and family. I am relieved to have crossed over to 2009 and I am hoping for new beginnings. The New Year's eve gig was good and it was great to have the number of people that turned out to support the night.

For some reason I did not see any familiar faces at the event and everyone was new. The energy was just missing, musically not as satisfying as I thought it would be. I think my experiment with doing a NYE in a mainstream club shall be limited to this one experience.

I think the brand image that has been created by BollyGrooves and BollyGrovers need something more classy and different hence forth I expect to do something different at the end of 2009.

My New Year has started on a positive note, I connected with a very very old friend of mine after almost 5 years and I am really happy to talk to her again and glad to hear she is doing well. I feel the time for something great has come, it has been a long wait but something inside me, a voice suggests the time for the journey to the top has begun and now there is no looking back, so musically that is a very satisfying feeling. There are things in the works that can only lead to bigger better things.

BollyGrooves the first joint Mix CD from Elad and I is releasing this month. It remains to be seen if we can actually sell the album, which would be great. I am not looking to make any money off the album just the cost to make the album and I think BollyGroovers would enjoy a product from our decks. The cd is really clean and very well made, so I am really excited about this release on Jan 24th at Chopsuey.

The last couple of days have been emotionally strange to say the least, I fail to understand why people choose to remain in disfucntional relationships, if it is not working out I feel its best to move on, but I have seen this a lot in my interaction with people, they choose to remain in disfunctional relationships simply because of the fear of having to explain their life to someone else and the risk that may or may not work out. I can understand that to a degree but only to a degree, beyond which it does not make any sense to me whatsover.

I have stopped caring about social stigmas anymore, life is too short to worry about what people might think, say advise you. I mean people talk crap about my life and then try and ask me for music favours in a roundabout way, taking me to be some fool who will not know what is going on. Dec 31st was a great example of this.

This woman I know had the nerve to talk crap about my personal life in front of 6 other people and then was shameless enough to ask Shelly for a custom music cd because she knew I would never refuse Shelly. I could not help but smile, I despise such people to the core and would never give them an iota of my time and in my book they have no humanity left in them. I feel insulted that I even know of such a human being but that's society isn't it. Takes all types to make a society.

Coming back to relationships and what people do in them, anyone who happens to read this blog even by accident, life should have no regrets, I have one and it will always kill me so my advice, do what you want to, don't hold back, it is never worth it. Don't look back and say oh I wish I could have done this and this could have happened.

Society will talk, people will talk, but for how long? a day 2 days a month a year? then what? they move on, noone cares. People have already moved on from Rupali's death, they have no reason to wait, everyone has enough problems of their own but the pain will always be there for her parents, I hear it in their voice everytime I talk to them, their world has shattered in front of their eyes. Sandeep's world has shattered and I shiver at thought of Nirvaan growing up and asking questions of him, me questions we have no answers for and never will.

So my only thought to end this post today is, life is to precious to waste away on things that don't matter. Live life, because for me the journey of life is everything not where I am at the end of that journey because the walk is in my control not where i stop.