I found a very old track today that I have not heard in a while, I used to love Silk Route and their album Boondein was very good. I have always been a fan of Mohit Chauhan and his voice.

A few lines from it

Koi ho
Yaadon mein
Palko pe boondein liye
Aaeina bani
Yeh aankhen teri

Dheemi se
Khusbu hai
Haawao ke jhokon ne jo
Chuke tujhe
Churaaayeee

My day.. Hmm, this one I dont have words for.. all I know the day flew for good reasons, happy reasons and then I ended the afternoon with a very painful decision. I shut the door on a friendship a very long standing one. I know so many people but my friends are few and far and I have too many fingers but not enough friends so this decision is a very bitter pill to swallow for me.

I don't know if I can stand by this decision for very long, only the test of time will tell. I know I have let go of a very precious and long standing friendship but maybe this was necessary, who knows? I just wish this friend of mine the very best of life and happiness wherever this person is. Maybe someday I can revisit this decision... and I wish that someday was now was tomorrow was in 10 mins but.... this is my issue and I need to fix it, noone else will.

Some relationships and new ones are formed. Ravi I know you read this so I just want to tell you that I am really happy for you my dear friend, you have a solid girl standing behind you who really cares for you and has a very mature head on her shoulders. I hope you guys can be like this forever and I just forsee good things for you with this relationship. Rene, you have found a wonderful guy and I hope you can remain happy the way you are.

I am working on this musical, and editing scores for them. I am really starting to enjoy the final product and it is giving me much needed experience and challenging my creativity. This is good and I hope to make the best of it.

It was back to work day today and as usual the struggle has begun to find a work, life music balance. I think I need to put in atleast 3 hours a week towards my deejaying so I dont know how that is going to get factored in considering bball season has begun and btw lost our first game too to a team I did not want to loose to. But I think we have a second shot at them and I think we have it in us to give them a hammering...remains to be seen.

Life has thrown curve balls at me consistently and I am sure to a lot of my friends but there are some questions I wish I could have answers to just know what they might mean. Is there something called true love? If so what is it? What does it feel like ? What you think is true love sometimes is just a figment of your imagination, how do you find that out and vice versa.

Books, movies songs people have define true love in way they understand best but really what is it? how do you know you have it or you dont?

More thoughts no answers to end the night.....